and me

Harming none: to me that is a guideline, something that grew in me with my education and something I do not have to think about, in general, when I act, at least not anymore, it is incorporated into how I am.
Hardly, if ever, I do have to think about it, since never comes to me the desire to harm anyone, be it for revenge, anger, self protection, etc.
I am lucky, I was raised in an environment where violence has never existed, although psychological/emotional pressure and control have been severely experimented in my life, and something I had to suffer a lot. Physical violence did not appeared to hit my life till my late years, when my character probably was already for the most part formed, when, to my luck, my approach to life had already found its way.

Harming none, if this is truly possible and reflecting about it comes to my mind though. 

Harming none does not necessarily come to my mind when something hurt me, as I said revenge is not really something belonging to me. It rather comes as a reminder when choices have to be taken.
There are situations when the absolute “harming none” just cannot exist and whatever decision we take will probably end up “harming”, to some extent, whatever it means. There are tons of such situations in life. There are little things we have to do that will indeed hurt someone, there are times when telling a simple truth is going to be a slap to someone. There are times when we have to take decisions to protect ourselves, what we are, what we believe into, or our promises. There are times when to protect ourselves we might hurt the feelings of someone else, for example.

There are other times when we have to decide if we want to do something that will make the ones we care for happier, or rather we have to hold ourselves, because it may be “inappropriate”, or could displease someone else. 

Just to mention something plain and not involving “physical pain”, for example, there can be situations when even saying openly “I love you” to the loved one, may leave someone else disoriented, maybe a friend who feels loved but in a different way. 

What to do then ? 
Should we not express what is true for the fear or hurting whoever around us? 
Should we shut up and digest within ourselves our pains, our joys, etc ? 
Should we rather always and brutally express them ? 
In the knowing that the world has to accept it ? 
In the knowing that a true friend will always be such and accept our feelings even when they expect something different from us ?
When there is a decision to take that will involve a grade of pain for someone, what should we do ?
Is this the same for physical and emotional pain ?
Should we rather “share the pain” in “equal parts” to the people around, so to minimise it ? 
Should we save the ones we said we love, the ones that expect us to be there for them ? 
Should we rather expect them to accept that we share pain around, including them, because they must be aware that they are in our heart no matter of our decisions ? 
Should we go the other way, absorb ourselves the pain, because that is the “no harm way” (even though this is only a trick of the tail, because we are harming ourselves in doing that) ?
Would we actually harm someone if we do that ? 

So in the end, if I try to be rational, to me it seem the “absolute” harm none is impossible. This is how i see it.

What I see possible is rather: harm the minimum possible, act responsively, be true to yourself, and do Your best.

To maintain ourselves faithful to our values, to respect anyone, to explain our choices, to keep faith to our priorities, doing it as openly as possible, not to harm, having faith in the fact that actions will be understood, if done with honour and open heart. 

That will always be my choice.

I live by no harm, still when I do have to make choices they go to first in the direction of not harming the ones i care for, that is me and I admit it. 

My choices are made so, and they are openly made so and explained, even to the closest persons who might feel I could do more, and I hope I will be spoken back and helped when I do mistakes. I feel that they will love me more they will respect me more, they will appreciate me more, when i do that. I feel i love them MORE in doing that, in always explaining my choices and taking my responsibilities for them.

My Creator Once told me:

“If You wrap what you do with all the Love You are capable of,
and Truth,
then, it will come back to You”

Kitty

I saw a stone.

It was heart shaped. It is heart shaped. I took it, gently, I lifted it and holding it in my two hands I brought it to my chest, to my heart. I closed my eyes and two silent tears filled the space between my closed eyelids abs my eyes. Then they poured down my face.

I took it home, showered did my things, got comfortable and then I decided to paint it. I took my painting tools and prepared a dense red. With all the care I am capable of I brushed it in red, I painted it, in tears.

I painted half of it, then had it dry, then turned it upside down and did the bottom half. Some parts holds small streaks from my brushing. I stopped to look at them, they looked like living lines, arteries, veins. They felt right to me.

It is with me since then. The heart from the stone.

Can you turn a stone into a heart? Why did I do it? Maybe we can turn a stone into a heart, maybe not. Maybe it is is, seeing life in stones, maybe we need to see it, and that´s why we see life where there is not. Or maybe we infuse it.

I do speak to it at times, it even answers me, it is mostly « yes » and « no-es », and then I add the rest, I speak a lot to reply, explain and build stories.

It is here now, by me. And with my mind and my little heart, I fly